I would like to re-emphasize what I said about Ed.
He is a really wonderful man, and I still totally wish he was my dad.

Also, TPA seems a lot cooler when you just hang out with the teachers. ^_^
And Ed swears a lot.

Also again:

electronautilus: CASSIE--HAVE YOU EVER BEEN WORKED ON BY TWO GUYS WHO ARE HOT FOR YOUR SNATCH?!
electronautilus: aaaah, i blush just typing that.
electronautilus: i'm sorry, dear.
electronautilus: i respect you a lot, and i hope you know that.
Sunny521: LOL
electronautilus: which part are you laughing at? ;_;

electronautilus: cassie, cassie, i want to have sex.
Sunny521: ME TOO
electronautilus: it is EATING my SOUL
Sunny521: it's certainly not eating anything else!!
Sunny521: (crowd goes "oooooh")

Ummm...I have a new simple template. *cough*
Blogger is well on its way to becoming an lj clone, and now offers comments, so I'm using it rather than my old system, as it's probably more reliable. So, I thought I'd share a few good comments, before they are lost forever. You might just want to ignore this post.


You know what's gonna happen when you eat those peppers!!! ASSSSSSSSS OF FIREEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

SURVIVOR TONIGHT, BITCH!
--Mary

Oh, I feel so bad! Are any of your friends back yet that you could escape for awhile with one of them? I think I remember you saying that you share a room with your younger sister, but do you have an Erin space where you can be alone? Is there a library or coffee shop of someplace that you could walk to and sit for a few hours? I'll send happy thoughts your way. The good and bad thing about summer vacation is that it goes by quickly. Even if it's uncomfortable and seems to be moving slow, you'll still get through it.
--Joy



I love you too, baby! You'll always be my favorite mammal.
--Aaron


Some of this rings very true.
"Loves to be alone"
"Witty and sparkly"
"Fun to be with"
"Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things"
"Judges people through observations"
"Prone to having stomach and dieting problems"

But some of it is utter bullshit: "Not revengeful"..."Not agressive unless provoked""...obviously, whoever wrote this has never been bitten, pounced upon, and rebitten by you.
--Aaron

And this dialogue goes Cassie, me, Mary, me, about cheating anxiety:

I HEAR YOU. I don't think it's something I'll ever forget, which..sucks.

You know what part of it is? He's saying the same things that he said about Ella: "Even if she tries something, I still won't go along with it."
I guess I just have to understand that the same old lines don't make it the same old situation...

I think you've done quite enough work, whereas he hasn't.

I get so mad sometimes when I read your journal and you say things about changing yourself when you ARENT the problem. I think rather than turning your attention on yourself, you should turn your attention on what is causing you grief. There's nothing you can do to make yourself feel better when he's just off making you feel worse.

My 2-Cents.

don't know. I think that, in general, I have a pretty good idea of when I'm being hurt and when I'm letting myself be hurt, mew. The reason why there are so many resolutions posted here that I have made is that I don't have the sticktoittiveness to change myself in most cases--I really to much on the high of "aw, nice, I'm so resolved now" and never accomplish anything. In some cases, it's different.
I have a really hard time dealing with my emotions, in particular, and distinguishing between moods and emotions.
One other thing is that Aaron and I kind of make a distinction between comfort and feeling comfortable--I think that, in this case, I got too wrapped up in being comfortable.

Yes! and, so, I'll fix it up later. Let's see if I'm willing to stay up until midnight to go out with Daniel after he gets home from work.

Oh, and what I just heard on my dad's super conservative radio station was not "Brandenburg Concerto" but rather, "Great American Chicken".

I spent the night at Kate and John's (& Angie's & Emily's, I guess, because I'd call them my friends) & that was really fun, but it's kind of overshadowed (is that a term?) by something that happened today:
Daniel took me out for lunch at Gentle Strength, which is the co-op that he co-operates, & I ate food that was tasty & vegetarian, & it smelled like Haymarket & soaked into my skin like sunlight,
(because, I mean, they're the only place in Arizona that has Reed's)
& I was fully content, fully aware of the weight in my body & the weight of our words--of the power of a group of people dedicated to kindness, kindness, kindness & health. I felt opened & trembling, like Lyra when Mary tells her the story about the marzipan, which is really a story about falling in love, & Lyra doesn't quite understand it, but knows it in every nerve and vein.
I realized two things, one:
that I have found a homey, energizing place at Smith College, when I open myself to look for it, & that I can't wait to be back & vibrant & experiencing it with my love. two:

that there in Tempe, Arizona, over tofu & cantaloupe, with Daniel, I was also home, for a minute.

Ed and I have a "date" on Monday to discuss Breakfast of Champions, Timequake, and whether or not it is acceptable to mix vodka with academics. ^_^
I adore this man and, while our relationship is not so intimate that I would use the word "love", I really wish he were my dad.

Please excuse this messy, unfinished layout--I'll start on it after work and finish it once Daniel teaches me to make gifs on Sunday.